Manic Monday

Manic-depressive--it's been up and down since last night.

Yesterday, even though Joanne had left and left me a bit sad, I was back by the afternoon with good news. I finally told my parents about Montreal. I thought they would be pissed: I asked my mom over the phone where my birth certificate, and why, I needed to buy a ticket for Canada and she pulled one of her "I need to go" and then hung up without saying goodbye (a common occurrence, though it shouldn't be). I thought they would come back home all angry and interrogatory.

I heard the car door shut, and I was tense by the couch by the door waiting for their angry silence and pursed lips. But they came in, easy going, taking off their shoes like they were coming back from the tennis court and then my mom just asked what I needed. You should a passport to be sure, she suggested. When are you going? (She didn't even need exact dates.) Who's going with you (I had that answer)? She didn't even ask about where I was going to stay, I mentioned it and then an hour later she asked about the area (a high-rise apartment where all the McGill kids stay). She was so calm and limited about it, it was freaky. It must have been the effect of letting my sister go to live on her own for 2 months, the postcard from Amanda from Portland (and she already lived in apartments all over way before this).

And so I bought the tickets. I was so excited by their reaction I couldn't think and thought a single ticket was $174 when it really was only the price of two tickets (singles were $87). I used my sister's information for it even though I know she won't be the one going with me since she'll be in school. I needed a place-keeper.

I was such in a good mood I didn't notice the 5 o'clock surprise until something like 6:30--Spring Awakening started to offer Digital Rush and stage seats were available again. I was really excited, talking about Montreal with Staci and how we'd have to get in Spring Awakening sometime before that before Blake!Moritz left.

I spent a couple hours and the entire Tonys writing and surfing everything Montreal and Spring Awakening.

And then, today, I woke up early and went to an appointment a month early. I would have to get a new passport and I neglected to realize that the post office probably did photos, too. I got a call from work asking if I was going to come in today. We talked about professions and money and happiness in Sociology which reminded me that I needed to find out what to do with my life by the end of the summer. When class ended it was rainrainraining and so I went downstairs to the library to wait it out.

And there I got the news that Staci wouldn't be able to come to Montreal. A few hours later, and 5 Spring Awakening OBCast members announced their departure from the show on July 19th. Plans for another trip to NYC are confused again. I wanted someone to talk to. I ended up trying to work in the open space in my sister's room which kind of worked but I was tired and distracted.

Convince the parents to spend July 1st week in NYC (orchestra tickets $56)? Wait until Rowena and the crew plan a trip for mid-July? Will it happen? Will it happen while I'm in Montreal? Take a $130 bus to and from Montreal and NY during my 2 weeks "in Montreal"? Buy tickets now, or wait? July 24-August 5 or July 23-August 4 to leave more room for Claire? Go back on my semi-promise to Ting and drop his room/apartment for another one with roommates that can check on me if I have to be out alone at night? Send books and crash at Brendan's for the night I arrive since it'll be nighttime and the key's with the janitor? Should I be worried? Should I beg everyone in the world and everything to work out the way I want it to?

I called Joanne 5 times and got a call from UVA at 8:58pm.

How is it looking up? I'm working on getting 2 interviews right now (will email more people this week). Walmart Pharmacy's already checked the references. I don't know... I'm waiting for the weekend.